Firstly, It hav been a long time i didnt write... Suppose i wanted to do a new blog but kinda lazy so juz make do wif wat i left... I'll try to improve it ASAP...

Hmm...I had a new haircut recently... So i tot maybe its a new start la but it turn out to be even worst... I've a huge unfinish arguement wif my Boify... Kinda upset when i saw his frenster status Single n his comment was "any prob wif tat?" WAT DE FARK... Den his Shoutout was lyk "I'm tired of being wat u wan me to be" NA BEI... Since when i ask him to die2 follow according to wat i realli wanted him to be as my boifren... So i send him tis msg...

"U noe i juz dun get it... Wats our prob ar??? Izzit me? U? Or us? I dun ctrl u... I dun interfer ur life? So wat are u tryin to say?

I cant keep quiet already n watch...

Given ur status Single?! Wat's tat abt? Tak nk mengaku tat u're havin a relationship ke? Abih wat does i related to u? Kwn?! If u tired of me?Juz say it... Straight to de point...Dun make things complicated.. Ur beloved ex view me... Happy... Both of u muz be over de top kn... U muz be thinkin "da start da mepek bdk ni n her negative thinkin".

How can i not be?! It's de fact... If not, prove to me den... U told me to be patience... And i did... I didnt contact u tat much cuz i noe u'll be busy n hav no time for me...And wats wif tat shoutout?! If its referrin to me den DUN BE... Did I force u or even ask u to be lyk 1... Juz be urself la... I could tell u hide a lot of things frm me...Have u spare any tots for me? Look... I realli dun ask much frm u, hav I??? Explaination will juz do for now... Plz..."

Is my love life being curse?!?

Anyway, finally get in diz stoopid blog... Na bei...

Dunno how long i haven update...

Since den i only update my frenster blog...

Disappointed tul la...

Under 4mth attachment...

Cant wait for it to end...

Only can look forward to weekend...

Heng arh sat no nd to work or O.T..

...Woohoo...

Miz my class clique

De fun

De laughter

+hUgZ+

Haiz... Now in a holiday n njoy mood.... So lazy wanna study for final exam... Laz nite i wrote notes juz 1 pathetic unit already feel fark-up sia... Diagrams la plus calculation... Tiz wk is either I didnt come for class or come late... How i wish tat i graduate tiz yr... Den i cld faster2 earn money... I feel tat time flies so fast...

After de Final Exam, a few wks later is Holidays den my attachment begin...

I read a mag yesterday abt "when gals get drunk..." Dey wldnt noe whether dey kena rape or had sex onces dey knocks out... All these gals noe when dey woke up dey already in someone bed... Ooohh.... (seems familliar... lyk my situation... but thanks god i'm still ALERT)

Haiz, wonder wats wrong wif my bud... Seems lyk tis wk he's in a rotten mood i guess... It's ok... Relax ar dude... Aku tau kau fikiran sal "die"... I'm so glad tat i still meet up wif old frenz... Catch up de old times... So sweet tat sometimes dey giv me a treat or buy me gift... Cuz dey still remember how i was... We been thick n thin together... If i hav xtra cash, i wont be stingy... I will giv ya a treat... We njoy n happy together... If ya in trouble, i'll spare a ear to listen n try to help ya... We sad n cry together... (touchin kan)

I'm so at lost now... I lyk guy A... A decent type of guy who is funny, sweet n i realli lyk his inner side... Always make me laugh n easy to talk wif... While B, he's my criteria type of guy which is bad boy looks BUT a nice n good person inside.... Too bad i hardly find any topic to talk abt... Sigh...

Til den i'll keep yab update ekh...

On lunar new yr nite, i didnt expect to get myself drunk... I tot most of de chinese ppl would be celebratin new yr wif their famiy or relative nor... Lucky me tat my old fren ask me out to Vivocity... Actually kinda lazy but i cant jailed myself in de house for so long... I'll gone nuts by den... hahah..

I so wanted to watch Norbit movie but ticket was sellin so farkin fast tat ended up we watched Ghost Rider... De special effect was great... CooL... Got no where to go after tat [by den it was midnite already]... So i suggest to go St James Power Station... At de beginnin its was ok ar... "?Had a few glasses of vodka... An hour later we started to order a jug mix of Long Island+ Whisky+ Coke.... Guess how much jug we had???

I cant recall tat much wat happen... Was njoyin myself... dancin n laughin... I remember laughin at others who were also drunk... Nxt thing i knew i was in bed wif my fren's fren... He was all over me... I know wat he wan but i keep on pushin him away frm me... Lucky bitch, my clothes were still on me... I cld only recall we kiss... I'm not goin to lose my virginity to him... It was a mistake... But i took it as a scandalous act... Look thru my hp... I called 3 of my galfrenz... [Nury, Lian n Nury]... It was 4am, none of dem pick up... There's my buddy too...

Silly me....I'm makin fool of myself... NOW, how am i suppose to face him... I could only remember tat... FArk... I went home half sober... Luckily my parents were still sleepin... De followin days i stay in bed, sleepin... kinda feel giddy... At least 2 of my galfrenz sms me checkin me out if i'm still ok... [thanks galz for still carin for me]

Irritatin lor... Since tat day, tis guy keep buggin me... Sayin he's in love wit me... wantin to be wit me... Come on arh... So wat?! If u're rich... I dun give a DAMN... Money cant buy me happiness... When's de rite time for me to be in love?! Oh,god... Keep ON n OFF... Most guys who used to be interested in me hav left... Is there somethin wrong wif me?!

hey, bud... [FaiZuL] shit ass, u seen all emotion... but oh well, thanks for listenin all my crap n prob... u nvr fail to cheer me up

hey,galz... [NurY, JuNy n ViVi] bimbo n bitches 4 life... thanks for all de crazy times we had... A BIG huggiez to 3 of u...

hey, galfrenz... [HaNa n Lian] I really miss de times we had 2gether... wat hav happen to us... We no longer close lyk last time... Each time i tink abt it, makes me wanna cry...

hey hey... [AmiR, ShaHRuL, SuDy n dot dot dot] Thanks eh for all de stupidiest jokes ever... I mean its was funny... Keep makin me laugh n stay happy... It really works... i mean to forget all my prob a while rather than go drinkin...

De lost contacts ppl lyk BoB, Ah JiM, NaJin, ZaiDy, MizaN, Daya n Etc... I MIZ U PPL... How i miss we cld contact back...

To those guys use to interested in me n now hav someone new + move on wif ya life... I hope all of u hav found ur happiness... Sorry for hurtin u guys by not acceptin ur love...

To those i didnt mention... Hey, i still remember u ppl la... not yet forgotten... All de best for ya future... Keep in touch y'all... (thumbs up)

She used to be my closest galfrenz ever... Dunno why de sudden change, she turn into someone new... Recently she pass me a CDR tat she burned for me... I was excited wonderin wat songs were in but instead I turned very mad n upset... There's only 8 track in 33min... HALLO... Tat CDR contain 80min which can be filled for nearly 20 song dependin how long de song is... And only 8 track she burned for me... Not tat i'm demandin/bossy but she cld hav known it better...

Save tat 8 song la til nxt time when there's new song... Den she can add to de song list n burn for me... Idiotic... She nvr been lyk tis before...Normally, she will be careful n double check it wit me... SIGH... I really miss de old "her"... Her sis told me tat she said, she feel lyk she hav no frenz... KANINA, DEN I NOT HER FREN AR... WAT DE FARK SIA...

These few days keep checkin out some cute guys... Nothin better to do mah... haix... Have u heard a song Torn by Letoya Luckett... de lyrics somehow show de situation i am in now... And Family Portrait by Pink... De lyrics really suit where i came from.. A pretendance family... It's all bullshit... is tis wat 'HOME' call??